"every dot com's refreshing for a journal update..."

Blogging used to be my outlet for emotional distress. That was when the only person who read what I had to say was me when I stumbled back over it time and time again. Now that everyone’s looking, I have to be more careful. I’m not good at blogging about happy things, because happy things don’t need to be sorted out, just celebrated. I verbalize happy things. I write to sort out my problems. It’s kind of weird. I have so many close friends that either read this site or are involved in it and sorting my problems out has gone from private to public. I have written about 20 blogs in the past month sorting out my daily dilemmas, yet none of them ever get posted. It's hard having to edit myself. I feel like I edit myself on a daily basis. With blogging. With phone convos in an office. With mixing business and pleasure. This job is a lifestyle and I think I’m starting to understand what being famous is like more and more. Please note, I said "understanding what it's like" NOT "on the verge of becoming" - please, give it to anyone else! This stresses me out enough. I’m beginning to sympathize with ol Brit Brit rather than just watching her like a spectacle. I’m nobody and she’s everyone’s somebody. Shouldn’t we have seen it coming with “Lucky?”

On a happier note, I stumbled across a post it note that was hiding under my paper weight. Yes, I have a paper weight on my desk. It is personal and was given to me as a gift from a very close friend. It’s probably one of the best gifts I’ve ever been given. Other than that whole gift of life thing. Back to the post it. It lists, other than a reminder to pay my electric and insurance bills, a number of albums that are on their way this year that I am thoroughly looking forward to.

These include:

Family Force 5

Hawk Nelson

Simple Plan

Panic! at the Disco (the ! lives on in my heart)

Tyler Hilton

McFly

The Crash Moderns

...and though I have no indications other than an optimistic outlook, I really, really hope I get to add Fall Out Boy to the list!!

This should make a very emotional year. I’ll get at least 7 happy blogs out of the next 11 months, right?

Off to work on resolutions that begin in February…