pretty. excited.

i feel like i'm not allowed to love you the way that i used to, but i love you still.

i don't mind being seen as cliche. i remember the last time i remembered how spring is supposed to feel. that cd became my newfound friend. i saw it as different. i may live for music, but it doesn't mean i've heard it all. nothing is original in the scheme of things, but any one thing can be original to any one person. why else would anyone bother creating anything. i guess you could play on reminiscent, which is what this is doing for me at this moment. the timing is perfect. i can't wait to prop my toes up on my dash, put down the windows, and remember that day.

i want to stand up and say "nothing you say can take that away from me"... but unfortunately something you said already has. but, in ten days, when i walk down the aisle, fast enough that you can't exactly classify it as a run, and get my hands on it, you can NEVER take that feeling away from me! for that one second, if only one second, i will be focused on nothing more than what i want. call it selfish, but i've got to look out for myself. you've only ruined it for yourself. don't forget why you came here. don't forget what made you have that feeling. i don't know how it feels in you, but i'm pretty sure it's close to the way it feels in me. don't let them taint your dreams and don't take out your frustrations on me because i play two roles.

[you] try so hard to be in the spotlight but the ones i admire took my attention and i never even recognized you. stop giving it up because now i loathe even your credible efforts.
jealousy will never replace hard work. shrug it off. the heart never lies.

:30
a new day is here. chocolate's endorphins really do change your mood. maybe it was just new music. i can vouch for the power of a good tune.
music is my anti-drug. jack is my anit-beer.
i'm over whatever i was under. i spilled it on the screen and hid it. let's just look at this as an opportunity. the hormones were distracting my focus.

pretty. excited.