It’s really quality, not quantity.

How can someone say one or two sentences that completely change your mood? Sometimes it’s a general understanding of the human psyche. Sometimes it’s their deep understanding of you and your needs. Sometimes you need people to say something that they wouldn’t say to someone else in the same situation, but they know exactly what to say to you. 2 hours ago I felt like a failure, now I have this optimistic outlook for the future. I made a declaration. I plan, at the moment, on keeping it. We’ll see once Christmas rolls around. I have more energy than I’ve had in months, yet I should be stressed beyond belief. I feel safe right now. I feel protected and like this magic plan I never had for myself is slowly unfolding out over top of my own. I’m letting it happen. It’s going to be better. I remember when that kid from St. Louis told me, “It will be okay in the end. If it’s not okay, then it’s not the end.” So simple, but something that has stuck with me. I got an alternate version of that tonight. It stated that things happen for a reason. I hear that and say it all of the time. It continued. The reason is that it’s part of or part of the prevention of veering from “the plan.” I believe in fate. I believe in a plan. I believe in the future. I believe in now. It’s getting to that point. I believe in 2008. There’s still so much left of this year. I have plenty of plans, but I can feel the future creeping up on me and this time I’m not hoping it will turn out the way I want it to, but I am excited about watching it turn out the way it’s supposed to. I’ve always had “26” in my head as this magical age when I would grow up. There will always be a little Peter Pan in me, but something’s gotta give eventually. I’m slowly weaning myself off of college life and looking forward to new chapters. I’m starting to realize that maybe I was never in control in the first place and maybe I’m just blessed. Give and take. Learn and live.

 
Just thought I’d throw this out there. There is one physical object that I’d like to be the owner of and I have had no luck in the past few years finding it. I’ve began looking again recently and still…nothing. This object is “Take this to your Grave” on vinyl. If anyone has any leads, send me a msg on Facebook or something. Sigh. Still happy. Still similing!!