the dichotomy
October 12, 2007
i love contrast. visually and lyrically it can so powerful.
but my head is spinning around the contrast of feeling so alive... and seeing friends looking like death is laughing at them. my good friend nate loves the fall. we share this love... the changing weather does seem to bring a crisp clarity to life... even as all organic life from the ground dies around you.
my weekend back home in virginia was... really strange. people i hadn't seen in ten years or more. it wasn't a reunion officially, but it might as well have been. and i just saw all this sadness around me. so many dreams unfulfilled, so many of my friends realizing that everything they thought life would be actually never happened. and instead, life, literally was sucking their "essence" away.
people think that new york city is a crazy place, with pillaging and murder and muggings. but to be honest, i found my hometown to be an incredibly sad place, empty, disillusioned with the lack of anything exhilerating. and i love being here, in new york. it is filled with people seeking their dreams... looking for fullfillment... looking for love... looking to live... to be alive. god i love this town.
ps. rusty... save darfur.
